It is entirely impossible to describe
The feeling of carrying a child
A baby growing inside of you
Sounds so bizarre and wild

However you learn to love your bump
And the baby that’s inside
Its not always easy to say your fears
And a lot easier for you to hide

For at first i didn’t know what to do
It felt so wrong to me
Everyone was happy about the new baby
But why couldn’t anyone see

What about me, how did i really feel
I felt scared worried and sick
Who could i turn to, who could i tell
There was no one i could pick

I couldn’t tell Michael and burst his bubble
That i was so scared and upset
I didn’t know what i wanted at first
I thought i was feeling regret

I struggled for months to cope with this
All alone in my head
Some days were harder than others
I didn’t even want to get out of bed

The day is getting closer
The clock ticking away so fast
I wanted to love my baby
How long were these feelings going to last

I evetually spoke to my midwife
Who told me it was OK to be scared
She told me to talk to Michael
I should of known he would have cared

I didn’t mean to keep my feelings from him
But i didnt want to spoil the fun
However now its out in the open
I can be happy with everyone

I know i have people who care
And support there if needs be
Why didn’t i open my mouth sooner
Then these feelings wouldn’t have taken over me

I am due my baby tomorrow
and i cant express how i feel
However its not like i used to
I cant believe this is all real

If you are feeling low or scared
And don’t no what to do
Just speak to the people that matter in life
and they will help you through

Your not alone being worried
There are other people like you
However don’t keep things to yourself
Believe me this is true.

This poem was written/submitted by Melanie Rowlinson.