i should of known that it wouldn’t last
its sad that my future doesn’t overcome my past…

i wish you would believe the words that i say
not think im raising my voice everyday…

i shoot myself in the foot every time i speak
nothing is right, im gettin weak…

i wish i had a dad who didnt mind me
i wish i had a love,
a love forever binding.

i guess a dad is something i wont ever have
because his words her words is all thats ever said.

i wonder when the day will come when i dont have to hide
when the rules stringing from my mind
are no longer ones i have to abide

maybe thats my ultimate problem
one i have never seen

why i tend to think men suck
and why im always so mean

maybe i should just be alone
and avoid all of this

or i could just move on and be better than
all of this.

all these thoughtsss
i dont know what to do

i wish i knew what it was like
to have someone like you.

everyday i fight to not deal with this
but apparently just seeing me,tends to make you pissed.

maybe its your memories that reflect onto me

that make u think of the bad times,instead of what could be…

i wish my family would go back to what it was.
when all that ever mattered,was our love.

now it seems to be about drugs,drinking,hunting and hate
i dont fit in any of those categories, none are my fate.

i wish my sister still called me piffer
i wish my brother still hung out with me
i wish my mom didnt get mad when i rubbed my butt on her
i wish my dad would still turn me upside down and made me walk on the ceiling.

i wish he never hurt me
i wish he never abused me
i wish i wasnt crying right now
i wish i was more important
i wish she never gave up on me
i wish she still loved me
i wish i didnt get so mad at myself
i wish people would see the things more important
i wish i never got played.

i wish i never saw those pills in that baggy
i wish you didnt lie

i wish i wasnt so lame
i wish i didnt want to die

but no matter what,
my problems are my own.

and even tho i wish for something different…
i should of known.

This poem was written/submitted by Tiffany.