the look on her face says it all
the very slight touch to my arm
it dont help
it dont make me feel better
i just want to get out and scream.
the darkness of sadness comes in the room like a shodow of what? i dont know
airy and cold silent and sad wanting to cry but holding it back.
me [...]

The shadow comes
darker and darker
hairs stand up on the back of
your neck
cold so cold
am i dead?
you pinch your self to see
then you’re mad because it hurt,
you try to do it a little harder
but you cant
you cry and cry why am i so bloody wimmpy
i deserve to hurt i need to hurt
oh my god help me [...]