This isn’t how I pictured my life
thinking about death and wanting to die
I was happy and free like a kite
or so I thought but is only a lie
It all started when I became a teen
and life got confusing and I felt blue.
everyone around you feels like their mean,
but really, they are just ignoring you.
On the [...]

I like pain, its my love, its my crush
I cut myself for the adrenalin rush
To you its sad, to me its fun
I’ll kill myself before I’m done
My light is fading, its getting dim
My whole life is filled with sin
I hate this place, I’ll bitch and dread
I feel the gun against my head
I’m alone I have [...]

They wanna see you fall
wanna hear you shatter
we’re living today
and note the past don’t matter
my bills stacking high
and my check aint fatter
then it was last week
but then again that too don’t matter
Daughter on the living room floor
crying that she hungry
screaming daddy
your supposed to take that from me
your supposed to take my hunger
and feed me pride, [...]

Sure you feel pain.
When you fall and scrape your knee,
but i bet You’ve never felt pain like me.
Has your boyfriend ever dumped you,
and spread a rumor that you where a whore?
I bet that’s never happened to you before.
Have you ever sat in your room screaming, music on full blast,
so no one could here your [...]

She sits patiently waiting for him to enter the room.
Was this really what she wanted?
Could it be that this was meant to be.
If only he really knew the truth of how she felt,
perhaps another card would have been dealt.
He arrived just in time with no knowledge of the crime.
In shock this young author wanted to [...]

I don’t know anymore
Life’s got me down
I failed a test today
Failed it bad
Thirty questions to go when the bell rang
My best friend I’m better than in so many ways
Yet somehow he manages to get laid
He gets girls he wants
I think I understand how
Is it his intelligence, his physique, or his heart?
No its confidence which [...]

This lonely place,
its scaring me.
i dont know where to go,
its dark and i cant see.
its like a room with no walls,
but yet i’m trapped inside.
an enclosed, open space,
with nowhere to hide.
i’m losing myself
in the place called a brain.
its a downward spiral,
i’m on my way to insane.
the thoughtless thinking,
i am gravely confined.
i’m just wandering around aimlessly
in [...]

Suicide is one way out from it all,
but fear consumes me for hell is where I’ll fall,
Means for suggestion is the ultimate question?
No Einstein here can’t finish the equation.
All that I wish for is that I could suppress my emotion,
hold no more solitude or devotion,
Erosion beneath my feet,
I can feel the scorching heat and [...]

One cut,
One wound
a moment of pain,
turning mental into physical and accepting the name.
This poem was written/submitted by Erica.

My heartbeat echoes, in a perplexed body.
My soul wanders, in a disturbed city.
With a worn out heart, and a torn out soul;
I continue to fight my personal brawl.
My every vein, suffering an ineffable pain
My structure collapsing, behind the curtain.
A sudden urge to cry, to scream out loud
Immediately silenced, by secret fear and doubt.
I’m longing to [...]