My heart was thumping hard. .
I put my hand on my heart. .
Every thump caught my breath. .
It’s like I was near to death. .
I was unable to speak. .
Tears rolled down my cheeks. .
My head tilted aside. .
I stumbled to the side. .
My eyes shut down. .
And I collapsed to the ground. .
When you [...]

Was it just a dream?
A scary nightmare?
but I wake up to find that the blood is there
The screaming
The crying
My insides their dying
This bleeding will it never end?
I’m my own worst enemy
but yet I’m my only best friend
This will happen for the rest of my life
I’m making these cuts my curse and my wife
So let’s suit [...]

Can you read me like an open book
has it always been this way
can you see straight though me like glass windows in the light of day
can you hear my screams
clearly in you dreams
do they scare you late at night
do u sit up in your bed
do you call for help
now one question i must ask,
do i [...]

Hark! The ego, a looming presence.
Watch the weather change,
A break in the clouds.
A brief glimpse of reality
Rays of the sun
Reflections on raindrops
resist gravity
Unable to maintain
Grasping at nothingness
What’s done is done
The sky has spoken
Back to the ground
Absorbed by Ego
It consumes all we do
As a raging inferno
Watch the weather change
Torrential rains
Global flood
Drown out the ego
Retrieve the olive [...]

The pain is searing, and never-ending,
It’s blurred my vision, it’s mind-bending,
My blood is burning and all is dark,
So I pray for death and eternal sleep,
The smell of fire and a hellhounds bark,
My breath is fading, I feel so weak,
I know life is hard, that I should not quit,
But it hurts so much, I’m just not [...]

Love lies bleeding in shades of grey
With only the memory of some
Distant day… velvet words so soft
And sweet
End in violence on a
Blood soaked street.
Emotions crawl insidious… in my
Fevered brain ravenously,
My madness is fed with the
Wine bottle beside me
Where my nightmare clings
Like leaves on an autumn tree.
Death awaits with grasping claws
Crimson tears fall bleeding,
Vanity a thing [...]

Never knowing to feeling of sleep or slumber.
Never feeling the warmth of another.
Never having the emotion of love.
Why is it only my blood that is black?
Why am I the only one walking down the road?
I look at the sun only to be blinded.
I look into a mirror only to see nothing.
I walk down an alley, [...]

Whats happening to me as I try to save your soul?
Come on lets watch this night unfold.
The last thing I remember you doing is piercing my brain with some knifes.
So why lie, I can see your demise.
Try not to hide.
The thoughts inside your mind are the only thing sane.
Inside this brain, there is no more [...]

My blood lust quenched, my teeth sink into revenge.
This cold life is its end.
The foretelling was a tiny spot of red, on my little bed.
Please help me for my own thoughts, they tell me to kill the one person I hate, myself.
The light just revealed itself to me and all I see is red so [...]

There is a fire in this beating heart, but it only beats for you.
Blood fills these lungs, as I scream out your forgotten name.
I feel the rage that consumes my mind and blinds these eyes.
I say enough is enough, I plunge this cold knife into your heart.
I see the look of regret in your eyes.
What [...]