The agony of life is torture.
For me, I see no future…
This damp, twisted, tunnel is never-ending,
Overwhelmed by death, it continues, bending,
Like walking through a New York subway,
Alone in this world, running blindly, searching for a way,
Lost, blind, and deaf, how I got here, no one knows
In the one place where no normal being goes,
Suicide, I’m [...]

If wanna see hate
I keep it Inside.
If you wanna see fear
Look into my eyes.
But If you wanna see sadness
try my heart;
It can only do so much
while it lingers in the dark.
If you wanna see an Angel
Avoid Hell.
If you wanna see innocence…
dont trust your eyes to tell.
If you wanna see a smile
Hang upside down.
Because no amount [...]

some days the morning isn’t welcome,
the sun too bright,world too loud,
it can take all you have inside you,
just to stand up,move around.
head bowed,it refuses to rise up,
eyes wont leave the floor,
shoulders stoop all by thier own,
like a slug ,aim for the door.
sleep is what you crave for,
no awareness ,no thought, oblivion.
perhaps things will be better [...]

What can I do?
No answer.
I am forgotten.
A light flashed too fast to be appreciated,
A story never finished,
Cut short by fate.
Who is he?
No answer.
A shadow goes unnoticed,
As I watch him fade.
Where we were once joined at our feet,
A gap never to be filled again.
Disappearing into nothing.
Where will he go?
I am unsure.
Once said, “Like distant waves,
We drift [...]

Eleven times she thought of it
Eleven times she wanted it
Eleven harmful cuts upon my legs
Eleven scars that will never go away
Eleven scars that tell my story
Eleven people that know what hapened
Not all eleven people understand…only her
Not all eleven people know my pain
Eleven tears that were shed
Eleven nights ago
Eleven times they tried to stop me
Eleven times [...]

Today was the first day,
When I actually thought we had won,
I believed in my mind that it was over.
That what we fought for had vanished.
The ships marched forward,
And the cannons were armed.
Turns out it was all a dream,
And the real war was me.
Run…
Hide…
The outer shells of my inner self,
The inner demons becoming engulfed,
I saw this [...]

These open wounds they will not close,
What will i do now? Who knows…
Blood pouring all over the place,
i bow to my knees and say my grace.
those fiendish eyes of dark despair
the claws so thin like razor blades,
you bow down and praise lord hades,
but…still all hope abades,
Dark memories of broken times..
look at these devilish rhymes..
For only [...]

I lay dead on the lap of my mind
Loaded with the pricking memories.
Nothing can ever wake me up
From this everlasting slumber.
Yes,I’m dead; dead like an ice-cube.
None mournes a woman’s death
Because she dies every day
Or she is killed every day.
Marriage is death for a woman:
Sanctioned and blessed by the world
She buries her joyous pastlife
To be born [...]

The sadness will never end
There’s no one who I can truly depend
The music’s blasting in my ears
But it still won’t rid me of my fears
The lights are out, the doors are closed
It’s my little secret; no one knows
It’s not like they’d care anyway
Don’t want to stay here another day
The happiness comes; then quickly dissipates
Can’t hold [...]

Whose to blame?
My mother, father, the world, or myself?
but let’s face it,
I can’t blame anyone
For all my misery,
that currently overlooks me.
I didn’t say no
if I did a different life would have occupied me.
I would have been a woman who inhales air, consumes oxygen and has blood flow
and maybe even life itself
I know feel like a [...]